HiM & hIs meMoRies

Scrolling down one by one his favorite songs.. and mine . .and ours.. listening to them and smile . . plus cry . . once it 'hit' my soul . . I just let 'em go . .  It's hurting me . . and I know he feels the same too. .. finally we did it.. we ended it . . together . . We promised to not let one another down . . our life should go on .. there is long way to go . . and we treasure our sweet memories together till the end . . from my side, I pray for his health and happiness.  . and I want him to know that I will always support him . .

Dear K....

even this is cliche, this is common, but this is truth . . . I am really sorry for everything . . please don't ever feel down.. Insya Allah I'll be there for you... and you know the rest..

regards,
love..

seMaraKkan cInTa jArak JaUh anDa

saya agak segan dengan entri yang lepas.. *_* . . tapi, takpelar.. itu memang sisi negatif saya . . sekurang-kurangnya rasa ringan sikit kepala pasal kat sini je lar tempat nak meluahkan segala . .

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anyway.. sebab ada kelapangan, aku pergilah minta tolong encik google .. ktorang meeting pasal tajuk ni - ehee.. cinta jarak jauh . . macam2 la tips keluar, aku pun baca lar satu2 kot2 dapat bagi aku idea apa2..

ermm.. ada 3 benda ni macam menarik untuk mana2 couple boleh buat sama2 walaupun tak bersama . .

pertama:  menonton cerita tv / filem yang sama pada waktu yang sama

kedua:  hantar bunga, kek atau surat cinta!

ketiga:  kongsi journal harian melalui blog..

terima kasih & credit kepada blog ini !!

antara ketiga-tiga tu, yang kedua memang tak pernah buat.. terasa nak buat tapi tak sempat2.. bunga & kek kirim kat orang boleh la kot, nak ngepos kang, pejabat pos tak terima pulak, hehehe.. surat cinta?.. maybe...  ermmm.. jadi orang dolu2 kan.. lepas tu boleh kumpul setem.. keh keh keh..

yang pertama - hari tu buat sekali (sebab kebetulan dia free) . . tapi, line maksis pulak buat hal sampai aku ingat dia dah tidur.. tak pasal jadi isu pulak lepas tu.. haishhh

yang ketiga - hmm.. sebab blog ni antara tempat luahan hati, aku harap aku mahupun dia dapat terima apa yang diluahkan oleh pihak masing2.  hidup ni kan penuh dengan kejutan, pahit dan manis,  bagi pihak aku, aku akan cuba tak guna harsh word and akan cuba jadi serasional mungkin, Insya Allah.. 

thank you  again (riezarchry) !

dOn't ruN aWay

I got my 'ecstasy' back! hehehe.. oh, please don't send me to jail..not that ecstasy lar...

my K's blog already updated.. yeay!! reading his thought can release my stress.. heheheh.. "try to find a solution, don't run away"... (I edit it a lil bit.. ) . . I'll try to bring this spirit with me every time I face stress . . Insya Allah, I'll be more patient, cool, think carefully etc next time.. 

he is having a flu - hopefully he can get well asap as tomorrow he will attend his 2nd interview... hmmm. I kinda worried this time , , (about his health condition.. ) . .

lets pray... -Insya Allah nothing bad happen....

I miss you too.. <3

a cOnfeSsiOn

sunday evening...
as expected I went to visit him at his workplace.. hehe.. it's such a routine when he is in evening shift.. join him and others during their break-time.. eating and chatting.. then leave early to have our privacy time.. haha.. not so long but we try to make our short date meet complete.. ;P.. frankly.. love to see him in his uniform - don't know why.. maybe because often see him like that before... *blush* ...

morning - dad gave me a call... he needs his viva back.. yeah.. so, I am ok with that and I plan to return it this coming CNY.. yup!.. dad needs it the most... back to the basic then, using public transport as always.. hehe . . . thus I guess my 'activity' will be slowdown.. haha.. please don't believe it.. ;P . .

oh yeaaa... this morning also, due to some wedding invitation cards from my friends sent to home, dad shoot me with unexpected question - ( I really love to use unexpected word recently ?? ).. which was like "angah dah ada boyfriend, ke?"  I was like.. arrr??.. apa ayah tanya camtu.. huhu.. "  but I did say yes.. hahaha.. am I? anybody want to be responsible towards my answer?.. ;P

this year, I am going to be 23 years old.. still young what?.. still got many things to do, many things to achieve and many things to challenge.. I am not afraid to put the target to get married, but I think 26 is most preferable.. (although I want to get married earlier).. haha.. not gatal  but ... hehehe.. so, before that, I have to belajar masak < that's why I prefer man that good in cooking.. haha.. I am so sorry for that!!.. ;P other things I could handle but not cooking.. I'm really worst at cooking.. ;( . . .

speaking of him ... I could see his effort to upgrade his life, I hope I can stay by his side, support him, give him good encouragement and not give him trouble . .  dear love.. I always pray for you, for us and everyone around us . . please share with me if something trouble you.. please let me know if you need me.. please get angry when I did wrong and correct me.. at the same time, please make me comfortable by your side with your care and love...

kHiLaf

menyorot isi hati si dia menyebabkan aku kembali berfikir sesuatu yang mungkin aku kealpaan.. aku tak sensitif dengan keadaan persekitaran dia dan seringkali lalai untuk memahaminya.. ;( .. sedangkan dia menganggap aku sebahagian dari semangatnya, tapi aku?.... aku gagal untuk meletakkan diri di tempatnya.. berfikir yang tidak2 bagai mengetahui apa yang tersurat dan tersirat yang Maha Besar dah tetapkan dari azali - ..

maafkan atas segala kekhilafan...
bimbinglah .. tegurlah ....

teMan sAya

soalan kuiz untuk hari ini...


"apakah signifikan teman lelaki/wanita kepada anda?"

Encik K cakap, kalau ikut kejujuran dia, teman wanita dia adalah tukang kejut bangun tidur, tukang pengingat, tukang tanya pemakanan, tukang penasihat perubatan.. (eheh.. pandai2 jer aku tambah sendiri).. haha.. err, awak tak jawab habis lagi yer?..

aku pulak jawab," teman lelaki saya adalah kawan saya.." jadi, apa beza teman lelaki dan kawan lelaki? semestinya teman lelaki lebih istimewa, dan dia tahu benda tu.. ;) mudah bukan?.. maksudnya perkataan 'teman' itu dah membawa maksud yang berat, yang mendalam, tapi terpulang pada sesiapa yang nak mengklasifikasikan maksud itu sendiri...

semalam, dia teman aku pergi beli kasut jogging - jadi, singgah lar dekat kedai b@ta tu, beli kasut 'paweh'.. pink and grey.. I loikkkeee!! <3.. yang kelakarnya, bila aku tengok dia, tengok aku test kasut tu, muka dia macam ayah aku belikan kasut sekolah adik aku, dengan gaya bebel2 dia tu.. haha.. terserlah lah jugak sisi ketuaan kematangan jejaka 25 tahun ni, padahal sebelum tu macam cacing kepanasan nak masuk game arcade nak tengok game baru.. haha.. macam2 hal.  (errr.. aku lari dari office lagi semalam sebab nak ngedate), hmm.. tahun depan for sure busy, so terpaksa lar menjurangkan kekerapan jumpa, ye, tak? kumpul duit banyak2.. melunaskan hasrat terpendam...

anyway, thanks love for 'that' yesterday.. ;) heart you...

 credit:  google image

hE is tHe oNe

his smiling eyes...

his childish act...

his blurry face..

his emotionless feel...

he makes me laugh

every time i meet him

he makes me miss him

every time i left him

he makes my face keep blushing

every time he teases me

he makes me happy

every time i feel down

he makes me proud

every time he shows his effort

and last but not least...

he makes me love him even more

when he said...

HE LIKES "PINK" !

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I miSs yOu tOo

"today, I just give you a rest-date-day (something like that) to you"

"rest day huh? you don't have any idea how much i missed you"

 

I wanna make you crazy by missing me..

and yup..

the naughty girl is here!

pRIce oF LoVe

" Have I told you already that I love you?"

"I don’t remember saying this to other girls except for the last 5 years.  now I would like you to have it ;)"

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There is a girl who feel that she owed this guy one thing.. the thing that she can not afford to lose it actually... she knows how deep is his love.. maybe deeper than she thought.. but still, she afraid she can not do the same thing in return.  She is so thankful to have the love... it's hard for her to say I LOVE YOU too, but she wants the guy knows that, ONCE she said I LOVE YOU, it means I LOVE YOU...

 and....

when she said it..

PLEASE DON'T GO.....

cRitiCaL

I think the 'critical' word is not the best word to put at.... in our situation...

however.. what is critical actually.. the word that came across my mind when writing the piece..

for me, it just... hmmm how to put it ya?

critical time we have together.... ?

I mean..

'the only' moment we have together..

does it count as 'critical'?..

*sigh*

when I think about it that.. yaa.. agree with him..

looks like our situation is bad.. like in a critical stage and need to be hospitalized.. haha..

duhhh...

ok.. yea.. maybe this time I did not come 'perfect'..

and he correct me.. ;)

nah.. is that what i need to improve my skill?..

and he agreed with mine too..

that, if we think critical in negative way, so it will..

how about critical thinking? critical success factor?  that need us to take it positively.. ? SEE!! it will become positive right? haha..

I don't know what I am doing right now.. thinking so 'critically' - again?? - in the middle of the night or just bebel-ling this and that..

ehhh?? where is he? sleep already? ..

I just wanna show him this...

err.. yea.. the word critical in that piece give a bit critical impact to him.. and us..
do you think so?

do yOu kNoW hOw to DrAw?

Do you know that I actually like to see you in those blue uniform?

;)

but I hope you can cut short your hair..

because you can not wear that hat every time...

and some of my friends asked me to ask you...

about your 'drawing' skill...

since I told them that you are orang seni..

can't you draw well?..

(^^,)

wHo iN my bOoTs?

Comel giler puss in boots ni, muka kesian rasa macam nak bagi pelempang pun ada gak.. ;P... sparkle gila mata dia tadi.. btw.. BESTSANGATSANGAT ok cite ni tadi,, berbaloi ar tengok.. g la tengok.. g larrr... ;)

SOOOO...

hari ni kua mengukur KL dekat 9 jam! cari baju, plus tengok wayang, plus borak2.. senang kata, dating lar with Mr. K.. ;) kesian dia aku hayak jerk ikut kaki aku nak pergi.. bila dah pergi golden triangle tu tau jelar.. bukan cukup 1 hari nak cover... anyway, tadi focus dekat ts.. setiap tingkat aku try cover kedai one by one.. haha.. tapi best shopping with him... at least ade orang nak cubit kalau terasa nak beli semua baju dalam kedai tu.. haha.. and.. dia pandai buat pilihan.. and bagi pendapat.. of course.. :) 

EMM.. this is Kitty the soft paws.. she is the 'senorita'.. so sweet bila kucing bercinta.. haha..

tak ada ape nak bebel sangat sebab tengah penat gila... just.. Alhamdulillah tak over budget tadi.. ;)... ehh.. esok cuti lagi lar.. ehem2... Mr. K, jangan jeles, ok?.. neway.. thanks a lot to him yang sudi nak teman saya tadi.. jangan serik, tau? haha..

"IMY"

c yeaaa!!

credit: google image

toGEthEr?

there was a small birthday party just now, held at my mak itam's house.. celebrating Aiz first's birthday.. HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY the little handsome boy.. ;)

and also to my 'handsome' man..  :P.. i miss you too..

this lyric i dedicated to you..
feel free to search this song by yourself.. haha..

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Dan engkau masih menyintaiku..
Aku terharu sejuta rasa
Kerana usia mudaku membara....
Hingga pernah buat kau kecewa
Dan engkau masih memberi harapan...
aku terlalu nilai buatmu
Akan ku balas dengan setia...
cinta remaja yang bahagia
Belum tentu lagi cintaku terbeli..
Kasih sayang murni yang telah kau bagi
Fikir-fikir ini terbaik buatku
Aku sanggup bersamamu
Duniaku kini penuh bunga cinta
Warna-warni dalam kilauan asmara
Satu-satu jiwa terbaik buatku
Untuk hidup bersamamu
Dan engkau masih tulus menanti
Aku dipanah rasa bersalah
Telah kupadamkan sejarah semalam
Untuk aku tenang bersamamu
Dan engkau masih menyintaiku
Aku terlalu nilai buatmu
Telah kau padamkan sejarah semalam
Untuk aku tenang bersamamu
ehsan:

Lirik Bersamamu - Ezlynn @ Lirikami

*cant wait for this saturday.. hope to meet you dear...   HEART U..

thiNKiNg of hiM aGain...

morning..

spending my time after subuh prayer reading his blog..
made me think 'something' deeply..

duhh.. i don't think i can write as nicely as 'his'.. ;)
he got talent and i don't get surprise if he choose linguistic to pursue his study one day..
my vocabs are not as good/much/superb as his and my words are frequently turns up and down.. and now, i just type what i want randomly...

rasa tercabar ni.. haha..

well, tomorrow will be my first working day at that company, to be specific as Corporate Secretarial Executive - Alhamdulillah, i don't have to wait longer to get new job since 'the tragedy'.. i wish to have happy and safe working environment.  i wish they can provide me a good on-the-job-training.  somehow, i feel excited to start the new job, but on the other hand, i feel that, am i fit enough to the position or am i ready enough to face the challenges?.. (forget about what silly-things-came-out from my mouth during interview - and now i feel ...... ) *sigh... what i have done before?

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hurmm.. i think my typing or thinking style is affected by him!

speaking of him.. the situation is going to be different from now.. but i'm grateful that i have normal working hours and can enjoy the weekend with him.. (perhaps.. ) but then, still have to find time for myself and for the rest of family.. i really have to.. i hope everything will be fine or else, i pray for Allah to give me enough strength to survive..

WheN yoU'rE aRouNd

When You're Around

I took a book and turned around

Flipped through the pages and looked back up

Something else had caught my eyes

It was you

Your pretty smile, a welcoming sight

Your presence brought me to the other side

Even the timing has always been right

When there was you

When you're gone I'm feeling a little lonely

I've been waiting since you're gone

Away from here

Since October

I can't help it no matter how I tried

Been in misery, only God knows

How does it feel

When you're not here

Found your numbers and I give it a try

Feeling anxious, waiting for a reply

And when you did

God knows how I feel...

K & A <3 11/11/11

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isn't that sweet?

Gosh.. i'm blushing right now....

and.. haruslar happy kan?

hikhik.. (ketawa sopan).. 

;)

he is so sweet.. 

Thanks love..

credit to: MyK#@!R

biLa eMosi beRBaur

emosi satu..

sampai bila yer nak sorok...?
aku belum dapat kekuatan lagi nak cakap sebab ada benda yang 'dah diduga' berlaku
mula2 aku tak rasa sedih sangat, tapi tipular kalau takde..
ok, aku anggap takde rezeki, mungkin Allah nak bagi rezeki lain...
kuat.. aku kena kuat, usaha lebih lagi..

dan sebab tu juga aku rasa aku dah buat Mr. K tertunggu-tunggu..
i am so sorry but i cant help it
tapi orang cakap, 'lama2 pun orang akan tau jugak'..
so, sebab aku ni antara spesies yang 'ambil port' 5% orang cakap, mulalah gabra
aduh.. hai otak, tolonglah berfungsi sikit pagi2 buta ni..

nak pergi ke tak pergi?
nak tulis ke tak tulis?
nak letak ke tak letak?
nak confess ke tak confess?
ke nak kena lempang budak ni...?

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emosi dua..

speaking of him...

i think he is quite unique person.. rasa macam berbeza 4 dimension.. haha.. apa yang 4 pun tak tau.. but then, he has his own world yang aku xpernah explore sebelum ni, kinda really new world for me and i see him inside it.. (bukan la macam alien but he is 'something'.. ) hehe.. he is a direct person but i am sure we will handle it in positive way.. he is much2 talkative than me!! haha.. serious.. n i just can smile or laugh towards what he says.. ;P i'm looking forward to know him more and more... ;P

then, apa lagi yang tak cukup? sedari dulu lagi, aku diajar untuk tidak mencari kesempurnaan kerana manusia diciptakan untuk saling melengkapi.. kesempurnaan bagiku adalah kepuasan diri di mata kita bukan orang lain...- just enjoy the life and balance it.. semoga Allah memberkati hidupku, kami, keluarga kami dan sekalian hamba-Nya.. amin...

credit: google image

thE sTaLker anD HiS LoVeR

orang zaman sekarang sangat pentingkan fesbuk, kalo boleh segala benda nak cakap, nak makan, nak mandi, nak tu, nak ni.. aku pun same gak kadang2 dua kali lima sepuluh jek. tapi dulu aa.. masa zaman jahiliah haha.. apetah lagi hal cinta-cintun sampai keluar lagu cintamukabuku.. (kinda 'just so-so' with this song, tak tau nape sebab dah dengar banyak kali cam ade sikit bosan kot..)

dulu, aku pernah buat entri pasal nak tayang ke tak or penting ke nak tayang status.. sekarang aku dalam dilema balik, haha.. padan muka aku, kena balik kat diri sendiri..,hmmm..  tak tayang kat fesbuk kau tayang kat blog?? tak same ke? haha.. jgn marah ekk.. bukan lar, lain.. bukan lar cerita sebijik a to z macam karangan diary tu.. ni kira ambik intipati jek..

eh eh sebenarnya nak tulis dalam keadaan jiwang tapi kenapa mode jadi macam kasual ni? malu ke? malu ke? haha.. aku rasa gila sikit hari ni..

cerita pasal mukabuku, sebenarnya aku masih lagi tak percaya yang aku dapat menikmati saat cinta pandang pertama... rasa macam bukan realiti je, aku ingat bende ni ada dalam spesies2 khayalan novel je.. rupanya wujud jugak.. ooo.. best ekk stalk saya selama ni?

oldskul kan? but i love it.. ;)) so, hari ni kami habiskan masa jalan2, borak2 dalam bas.. haha.. jeles tak? jeles tak? tak main la cintamukabuku, haha.. aku saje jadi oldskul, bosan la asek pakai mukabuku je kan.. ? bigor dia neh.. ;P betul ape, patutnya saat2 penting macam tu biarlah jadi privasi kan? betul tak ? betul tak?.. yeeerr.. bila menghabiskan masa macam tu, dia ada depan kita, dia cakap kita dengar, kita cakap dia dengar, boleh tengok mata dia bohong ke tak.. ;P rasa dia ikhlas ke tak, tanya apa yang kita nak tau, dengar apa yang dia nak confess... so sweet gitu.. kalo nak marah ke, nak tegur ke, depan2 terus direct kena.. lepas tu nak balik rumah masing2 rasa macam tak nak balik jek.. ;p

sepanjang perjalanan tadi, well (ok, aku dah start blushing)..  aku rasa muka aku cam muka kat atas ni je tadi.. malu***.. kelakar pun ada, tak percaya, kebetulan yang macam tak masuk akal tapi betul2 terjadi and giler.. ahhaa.. tapi kami masing2 serahkan pada Allah s.w.t. sebab benda pun dah jadi, aku tetap pegang prinsip aku yang just go with the flow, i don't have to stop or block or change or else because HE knows better...

to Mr. K, saya tau awak baik sebab maksud nama awak sendiri adalah baik, saya nakal tau.. ;P.. thanks sebab hargai saya walaupun saya tak ada apa2.. terimalah saya seadanya dan saya harap awak boleh bimbing saya ke jalan yang diredhai Allah... insya Allah... awak sweet giler... ;P